I had one of those vivid dreams last night... you know, the ones that seem to really impact you and stick in the back of your mind all day. It was a birthing dream. Being 24 weeks pregnant, I'm fairly certain this is pretty normal. However, I'm sure in reality, the birthing will be rather different than what I dreamed up.
I've heard people describe childbirth as "something out of science fiction" to "the hardest WOD you'll ever do." (For those unbeknownst to CrossFit, WOD refers to "Workout of the Day"). For the mothers that have shared their birthing story with me, I understand that it is common to not have the clearest memory of what exactly goes on the whole time. Thank goodness for that, I have to say, because I'm sure one wouldn't really want to remember the pain in that much detail. For some reason, though, whenever I dream of childbirth, I dream that I have this memory lapse. My dreams of childbirth don't have anything to do with pain... the labour is always a blur and then, there's the baby! HA! As if it can be that easy.
The one thing that really struck me in this dream, however, was the act of seeing the baby, this human being you helped to create, for the first time. It was such an overwhelming feeling of joy and amazement. If such a great feeling came out of the dream, I can only begin to imagine what this moment will be like in real life. Something to look forward to...
As a first time mother, I'm trying not to worry too much or have any solid expectations about the actual birthing. I know I will be in capable hands, and I will be taken care of no matter what goes down. Of course, it would be nice to stick to my plan of doing it naturally without meds, but I know that the situation may call for something different. The pain? Well, it doesn't really frighten me because I know it's inevitable and I will get through it (can't be pregnant forever! Haha). I'm more worried for my husband, actually, because I know it'll be hard for him to see me in such pain.
But it will all be worth it in the end, when seeing that precious face makes everything before that melt away.
Wishing you a beautiful day...
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